@sikkdays
I'm working on a sorta long reply to this that I think may help you. I think I'll email it to you and, once you've reviewed it, possibly will post it to my website in case it could help others that feel the same way. I feel like everyone with an interest that, in pursuing it, gives them peace and joy, has dealt with similar wonderings and concerns. And then like 50x more likely for those of us with anxiety, and 50x even more likely if we aren't already retired and living it up in the Bahamas.
@sikkdays I've emailed it to you now :)