The internet is often praised for speed, instant communication.
We use things people said online to crucify them. We talk of futures we fear or delight in, but it is all in the past.
The internet is far from instant. People change every moment. We have to stop condemning each other.
I'm not against debate, but remember we're all suffering and the below each side of an argument is someone suffering.
MH [ - ] meds
My doctor got me on something which seemed to help with the suicidal thoughts.
I've had a backward slide in the last 2 months and the thoughts are far more prevalent. So, the meds probably aren't doing the job anymore.
I'm not looking forward to having this conversation with the doctor and I'm not looking forward to new meds.
If you're around Edmonton this March you can come see my first ever attempt at an art show.
A Break in a Pattern is Not Always a Break in Habit: http://savethis.space/2020/a-break-in-a-pattern-is-not-always-a-break
Working at the cafe as my partner does her homework before I go and meet my nephew. One table, 2 older ladies having a chat while knitting. They're calm and even in the silence they are fine. Another table has 2 women in their 30s talking over each other and doing nervous giggles every 10 minutes.
I'm trying not to be judgemental, but all that laughter seems to be hiding insecurity. While the older women are simply comfortable where they are at. I wish I was the older women.
I grew a wallet in my basement!
I’ve been growing #kombucha scobies specifically to turn into #vegan leather, and my first batch is finally done. I’m going to write a recap and tutorial. In the meantime, here are pictures of my new wallet, made from kombucha. It feels like a cross between heavy plastic sheeting and leather.
I want to care less about things looking "good" or "correct" and just, be loose, have fun? middle of the night art thoughts.
Advertising Is a Cancer on Society
...Real world advertising is not about informing, it's about convincing. Over time, it became increasingly manipulative and dishonest. It also became more effective. In the process, it grew to consume a significant amount of resources of every company on the planet. It infected every communication medium in existence, both digital and analog. ...
The Dangers of Self Sabotage: https://savethis.space/2020/the-dangers-of-self-sabotage
mental Health & Money [ - ]
Pressure. Stress. Anxiety. This is me at job interviews. It's me when I am applying. It's me when I am looking.
Painting and drawing are a new found joy. I am not anxious about being 'good enough' as I am about work. Art is the thing filling my tanks these days. I feel a sense of worth doing it.
"So...work part-time, or get a job and still use art to fill your tanks, Chris!" I lack the excitement and I am filled with anxiety at this prospect. I am loathing me ATM.
Training is never mentioned. It's just "preferred" you would know it all.
There are lots of issues with how we do hiring in the world, but it occurred to me today that job postings are garbage. Basically it is all HR legal-ease that is carefully written to include every *Possible* thing you could encounter. So you don't get a real description. You don't get the actual shift/days they want covered.
Writer, video editor, motion graphics occasionally pay me. Creating art and having conversations fuel me.
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