I haven't been posting a lot of #mastoart lately because I have been doing some secretive #watercolor work. I am making a cookbook to give as gifts to people. I am sort of strapped for cash thanks to my #MentalHealth and student loans.
When the cookbook is done, maybe I will drop the pages in my NextCloud and share the link for those of you interested. Maybe I'll print one and send it to you if you're really interested. After all, paper is inexpensive to post.
Fingerless gloves from a small loom. I liked this project. I probably shouldn't be posting a picture because somebody will likely get them as a gift this Xmas. I am just proud of my work.
Typical me-- feeling guilty for enjoying knitting when I should be working to make money. Student loans are stressing me out and I am engaging in self-hate.
Two more days of an intense #MentalHealth peer support certification course. I am learning so much!
At the same time I am fading fast. Not sleeping in my own bed and being away from home is having an impact.
The things @anildash says on this #MentalHealth podcast about ways to improve social networks would be interesting to test in the #fediverse Devs like @dansup and @Gargron are already doing some of it, but Dash has some other insights.
It's been a while, but I've been avoiding #Meditation because I've been using it to do work. Working with emotions if very hard. So, I created a guided meditation to work with my emotions. Have a listen if you think it would help you.
I sent an email to a potential interview for the new #MentalHealth podcast. This one is a big reach and I'm nervous about rejection, but I am so worried about failing at making this happen that I have push myself. Wish me luck.
Got patch cables for my new compressor. Um, wow. This makes a difference. Woo.
I think this will take more concentration to get a decent sound out of my voice then I have at the moment. I'm not at my best #MentalHealth
So, maybe tomorrow I will play more, or record a new mantra.
I still feel weird, or like an impostor, calling myself an artist. Maybe have a look at some of my work for sale at https://www.designbyhumans.com/shop/sikkdays/
There's a sale right now and I'd love your support. In the end it's about my acceptance, but it would feel good to see others enjoy my work. #Mastodogs
Self-promo is hard. So, I'm attempting to be better at it.
There's some danger in attaching yourself to labels when you're dealing with diagnosis in #MentalHealth. Rather than doing the hard work of dealing with my own emotions and circumstances, I may identify as broken. I know this.
Imagine my surprise when I recently started to entertain the idea that I'm a victim in some areas of my relationships. A blog about being a victim to my own insecurity. https://savethis.space/2019/victim
Talking about #addiction is hard because it feeds that shame demon riding my back. The shame can sometimes led back to addiction. As a society we don't particularly like talking about addiction. We rush people away to treatment facilities, like we push the elderly to homes. That's mainly chemical addicted folks. There's a tremendous stigma around behavior addiction. Those of us with that problem are merely weak.
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